Love Is..

It's no secret that she is utterly smitten and in love but Love is the hardest thing a person will ever have to do it is the one thing that can alter the state of mind emotion, and trust putting your emotional heart into someone else's hands and asking them not break it is terrifying to fully submerge yourself with love is like jumping off the deep end and hoping you learn to survive quickly

I have been in all of these situations and I have had trust issues I've dealt with infidelity abandonment and an evening altered state of mind in my past I have even lost myself within a person which is dangerous but the first rule of order is for me was the healing part the deep spiritual engulfment of self I need to see me raw and emotional I needed to identify with why attachment and love were so important to me in the first place I had to have that uncomfortable conversation with myself and ask the even hard questions of why were my emotions were so deep-rooted why did I allow my traumas to even get in the way and understanding that my trauma may have been too much for someone else who is dealing with there own forms of trauma.

for a person to be intensely in love it means learning how to love yourself first understanding that you have to be aware of what is good for your spirit how we can constantly connect with ourselves and handle the basics like taking care of daily essentials what those mental triggers are and what our very own love language even sounds like and how that is being relayed in all reality how can you deem a person worthy of your love with you if you don't know how to love or love yourself back you matter you are beautiful and it is a process and everyone's story is different give your self credit at the end of the day your not perfect but you are still here!

My story started in 2011 shortly after my father passed away I met a man whom I befriended then and now changed my life forever now I have had a lot of boyfriends and quite a few relationships but this man was the one I didn't want to ever let go he was the only one I allowed to see me naked stripped from all things mentally scarred bruised and emotional he excepted my flaws in it

We both struggled with our demons and past traumas and made many mistakes in how we treated each other and also took our time apart to figure out were we still compatible with each other we had our fun and the most amazing part about all things is the finding each other in the same place we left off.

Understanding that we had the same common goal and feeling. the love we have for each other prevails and mattered more than the strife and we love deeply emotionally and openly which is rare that someone sees you for you and doesn't try to alter you yet wants to help you become the best version of you. the fondest memories that I have are the beginning the middle and now "forever"

I have always said the strangest thing about how God works in the matter of the heart is how he places you with people that make such an imprint on you how they somehow aren't there just for love but lessons to teach you, someone for personal growth and love is in the package and how in marriage there is actual work everything else falls into place everything else falls naturally we still have disagreements and things aren't always perfect but are they peaceful

Today, 11 years after we met and 6 years since we were married, everything about us is the same as 11 years ago. Despite the chats, arguments, hurts, flaws, children, family, and everything else involved with a relationship that set us up to fail, we remain the same strong and resistant.

Our relationship is based on mutual understanding and recognizing that people grow and change, and it is best to accept each as they are at present and work from there I chose an imperfect person and I am imperfect but together what a force are we.